what do you expect me to do? be happy with it? you have never felt being such a big failure. i did now and i just don't understand why do other people just love to boast about their marks when they got high and just keep quiet when they got low. i thought you just looooove to boast but why dont you tell other people about the low marks you got ? what ? embarrassed ? that's how i felt. im embarrassed yet you're there telling people you passed this and that. boast ah lagi, tak cukup boast pe kann. fine. i've made up my mind. im going 3/5. maybe even drop to normal acad. i can be with khairil there. how fun right ? being in express sucks. all you get is getting in the last position in the whole level. oh wow, i got the last position you know. i'm proud of myself. i just can't take it anymore, understand ?! i'm tired of failing. im tired og getting last in every subject. i'm tired of getting F9. too tired of it already. its time for me to give up and let it all ruin my life. sorry friends and mr tee. i know you guys did alot to help me but maybe, its useless. it just can't change the fact that im stupid. too stupid to be in the express stream. mr tee, im sorry. i've let you down once again. what you said to me really is touching but the results have already ruin my life. it has proven to me that i'm useless and stupid. not even myself can change that fact. i don't have anyone to depend on. not even him. my friends ? maybe. when i need you, you just arent there. well, i just cry on my own thinking of why im just stupid. ferdaus wanted the old me but im just me. i didnt change. im still stupid as ever. last time and now is the same. fail and fail, same right ? okay, whatever. i've made it clear enough. im going to 3/5 or normal acadamic. i'm changing my mind. goodbye dearest friends. i may not be able to be with you guys anymore. promise me you guys would excel and dont be like me okay ? good luck.