after being in that situation, i realise that crying over spilled milk could never change the situation. what's done is done and it shall just be forgotten. it may hurt deeply but when you think about it back, it will just ruin your life thinking about it all the time. i've been trying to avoid everyone and everything that involves it but it seems to be coming back to me instead. i shall just ignore it. i've deleted everything. yes, everything. nothing should be kept since its over. i dont want to cry and end up having a swollen eyes like today again. i will get over it. i promise, i will soon.

thanks to fer , ayu , maya , steph , syaf , farah & syahir i can soon get it over. its difficult but i just have to. nothing can change this upside down situation. okay, i've promised syahir not to cry anymore. hopefully, i wont break that promise. thinking back about it just make me do it. i dont know why. god, please let me overcome this fast. i cant stand it anymore ):

you can see me laughing and smiling but you'll never know what i feel inside. i smiled and laughed so that my friends wont think that i'm sad but i can't control it. suddenly, i will keep myself silent and all those memories came back in mind. my mood suddenly changed. im sorry but i cannot do anything about it.

alrights, i'm just keeping myself as happy as possible. goodbye lovables (: