I can recall you saying ; if you really need me, i'll be there for you.

but, are you here now when i really need you?

i guess you're not.

i lost everything that meant alot for me in life.

from you, best friends and even normal friends.

i've lost all of them. seriously, im nothing now.

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nothing is right, now. today was the day i really lost EVERTHING.

i did that so that you guys wont feel hurt but in the end, i was the one hurt.

i lied saying my mother is angry cause its getting late already but actually she's not.

i lied cause i was dissapointed and i dont want to meet up to help you guys.

im sorry but i can't control my anger.

till now, im still reflecting on the things i did and i realise im useless.

its okay, i know everyone hates me. hate me all you want cause i wont be around anymore.

now, it comes to you.

i scolded you for nothing.

i forced you to be with her.

i tell you all my problems, which is a burden.

i didnt treat you well.

i was a freaking boring kid sms-ing you everyday.

it seems that everything is my fault. as i said, im useless.

sorry. i dont deserve you.

i thought i could get help or encouragement from you today.

but instead, you were buzy and im all alone crying my heart out.

maybe, i should not go to school tomorrow.

okay, i shouldnt.