i aint tht good . i aint tht tall . i ain tht perfect . at all . but knowing my weakness , i came for it . i knoe i`m not good in playing it . i cant get a chance to even play it . i came , without fail . but does anyone apprieciate it ? i knoe some of you do . but some my not . i tried , to do it as great as i possibly could . but it`s all just a waste . i sat there . watching you play . thinking of wht am i doing there all day . separated from you all . people looked at me . wondering why i am the only one sitting there ; doing my own things . they may think tht i do it on purpose . but they just dont understand . i even cried while thinking of why i`m sitting there doing nothing . i`m there for a reason . it seems like no one understand me there . i may not be joining you all agaen . just do your best guys . with or without me , i`m sure it`s just the same . same people in a team . same people playing it . same people being reserved . you guys will do much better without me . so , play on without me .

okay lah . i`m tired of crying . okayy . somethings do cheer me up . just like the time when hafiz sholihin saed hi to me . great ! & raja accompanied me ; go home time and during training . thanks people . okayy . umm . hafiz sholihin ; he has a cute smile lahh ehh . i saed hi to hym than he kept smiling . LOL . den finally after he finished soccer . he walk past me . & saed " hi ! nak sgtkn aku ckp hi . "
den i was like smiling back to hym . hehs . wht else can i do . duhh ~ okay . i got invitation from shaid ! yay ! cannot tell you all lahhs . secret . hehs . dirty little secrets . (: okay umm . i`m gone now . i`m tired . update more tomorrow i guess . toodles ~

<3 ,
athirahh (: